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[Thursday Dec 3rd
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realization:
I drink so I don't think about you and her.
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[Wednesday Dec 2nd
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inside your spaceship
meteors pounding on the roof
you gave me
your favorite words and pictures
pages bound together with glue and string
Here's something for you to do
while you're gone from here
I stepped out into the dangerous shower
a river of stars flooding the gutters
closed the door
and you sped away
these soggy pages can keep me warm
I don't need you
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[Monday Nov 16th
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why is it?
because I'm doing something interesting with myself
because I make you feel important
or different
or like you're worth something more than what everyone says
because I'm only home for a few days at a time
and you've got months in between
to be whoever you want
and fuck whoever you want
all of the above?
or something else?
okay, nevermind.
I don't want to know.
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[Wednesday Nov 11th
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he said
"Its like when you're a kid playing a game
I was playing one game,
then you came in and wanted to play
but you got to change all the rules
and kept making up new ones without telling me
so neither of us could win
you can't change the rules like that"
...why can't I ever settle down?
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[Friday Nov 6th
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Against the walls
Against your rules
Against your skin
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[Wednesday Nov 4th
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Stills from Broke Bitch Mountin'
Director: Cameron Abdo
Writer: Dylan Gravely
Producer: Dylan Gravely
Editor: Matt Gorbachev
Director of Photography: Callie Moore
Production Designer: Rachel Fowler
( Read more... )
more to come
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[Sunday Nov 1st
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3 blocks or 4?
I honestly don't remember.
Pouring rain all the way back to my apartment.
I don't want anything from you.
I love these people.
This place makes me crazy.
From now on though,
I am only utility.
This entry makes no sense.
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[Tuesday Oct 27th
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I wrote this in 2006
I look down to find my face in the dirt.
And it is at this moment that I realize two things.
1. I am where I chose to put myself.
2. I am only a human.
strange how I think that will apply for the rest of my life.
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[Tuesday Oct 27th
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tough and unaffected.
untouchable.
sometimes even I forget that my feelings can be hurt by something.
I never want to let you down again.
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[Saturday Oct 24th
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One film down.
Shooting another tomorrow and another next weekend.
I feel so productive
and exhausted.
I look so worn down
and haggard.
So good.
So good.
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[Thursday Oct 15th
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blacked out for the first time ever last night
college is making me neglect my body
...
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[Tuesday Oct 13th
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director of photography for
3 movies in 2 weeks
Broke Bitch Mountin'
sex, blood, gore
Claude + Camera
kid, polaroid, fantasy
A Perfect Opportunity
zombie apocalypse, love story
so, here we go second year
I'll have some interesting things to show when I get home for break...
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[Saturday Oct 10th
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You called me after he left and walked back in the rain.
We talked until your phone died or until something told us we had gone too far.
Now only you know all of those things about me
and I should be scared as hell but I'm not.
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[Friday Oct 2nd
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"Don't run away from me.
Whatever you do, please don't run away from this."
I can't believe you're real...
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[Monday Sep 28th
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Friday night around 1:00 AM I broke onto one of the sound stages in the film village with my friends Lindsay and Brittni.
We set up a few lights and Lindsay modeled for us.
( This is what came out of it )
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[Saturday Sep 26th
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my friend wrote a rap about me
Cigarette Callie
Smoking in the alley
Taking a break from the movie set
Running with the boys
Playing with camera toys
Gonna be Ellen Kuras but she ain't there yet
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[Saturday Sep 12th
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Honey, you didn't even make the list.
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[Friday Sep 11th
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Its four in the morning
and for some reason
I feel sick to my stomach
I just packed every last bit of everything away
I've got enough clothes to last me through tomorrow and the next day
We'll see after that
I'm not sure why I'm so frustrated
Sometimes all I want
is...
see...I don't even know anymore
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[Wednesday Sep 9th
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The crickets and night birds are screeching louder than my radio
with two of my four windows down driving to a temporary home
from sitting next to you for two hours
in front of two people, 30 feet tall
and in so much love
the moon is smirking down
with yellow teeth from all of our smoke
shaking his head
laughing at how i'll never know what that means
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[Monday Sep 7th
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I just got really nervous
like cut wires sparking in the bottom of my stomach
what am i doing?
5 days...
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